On the personal 'meh'-list...

There are some products that are loved and hyped all over, and you personally do not 'get it'... 

I have this with 'beachspray'...

My hair is quite 'caucasian'1 and a bit more straight than the average 'wavy' caucasian1. Wherever I see my fellow 'hairsisters' indulge in 'beachspray'/'surfpotion', etc...they become those beachy goddesses and somehow their wavy do's keep some shine.

In my hair it looks like my cat's been playing with it, peed over it aferwards and no wave will enter it whatsoever 

(even curling thongs will be like-> "not working with this potion")

As you can see above, I tried...

I picked the creme de la creme , 

used about 20%, 

put it in the whole of the hair (#craptastic), 

put it on roots only (#meh & itchy)

it smells like Maui, only the toilet freshener variety (strenght & composition)

 and then I just stared at its blue colour and dreamt of the real Maui...

(->travel fantasy, at least the blue colour does something)

So that happens and somehow I cannot face to bin this bottle...Ok, let's make that blue 'wave' again by just shaking the bottle from left to right?

 1. Caucasian= Whatever that means...lots of variety too

not so happy

Disclaimer: the next post will not contain any happy news or wonderful pictures of cosmetic items. It will, unfortunately, be a public rant on the downside of the human nature of some persons. If you want to stay in a happy mood, or are 'weak at heart', please abandon this page.

After a couple of weeks of miscommunication and persons who think that they know who I am and were I stand, based on feeble information, I felt somewhat angry, but also proud to see how Jamilla Camel handles the situation with her troll (this post).

I, as most readers know, do not post my face on my beauty blog. It has partly to do with my lack of self-esteem, the need to stay semi-anonymous and also, that persons with bad intentions would not use my face for other purposes.

The fact that I want to stay semi-anonymous is that some people feel the urge to pigeonhole you based on certain characteristic, which, personally, I find this very shallow and lacking interest in the real human being behind certain behavioural aspects or characteristics. I like makeup, period, and I am not ashamed by showing a bit of vanity. Does that make me an airhead or does that drop my IQ level with 10 points? I do not think so.

So why am I vain? Well, even the most hardcore non-cosmetic user, anti-vanity person is aware that beauty, health and a reflection of happiness matters in our contemporary societies (Western, Asian, African, etc etc). If my face glows, it makes a better impression than if my face is covered with red splots and weary eyes...although I do not hesitate to do my groceries au naturelle when I do not feel up to do my makeup.

So, for some people I am too vain, and other people would hand me a whole list of 'improvements' I could make to look 'more beautiful', 'more Western' or even...forgive my French...'more pornstar-esque'.

However, I do not think it is valuable to listen to various people too much, because they themselves are hardly consistent in what is beautiful or not (some opinions change as the weather), are sometimes not the persons I consider to be style-icons themselves and blatantly...are not even that important in my life.

People who matter, or the loved ones, are important. My boyfriend often suggest that I should not switch skincare products too much and stick to something that works, as my skin is too sensitive. He is actually very right about this. These suggestions are very helpful and valuable.

As far as blogging, I love to write about products that could actually work for a person with genuine flaws. It is ok to hear a gorgeous, young saleswoman say that the eyecream works for her and her undereye circles, but I doubt if these flawless person actually know and experiences what an undereye circle is...

I also love the blogging community of beautybloggers. We share similar interest in beauty, and often in food and travel as well. It is so nice to see if a Lunasol items gets thumbs up before you splash out on a product you have never seen before in real life.

So, that will be all of my rant for today, and probably the whole year ;P! I will draw the winner of the contest in the afternoon, so I will post the winner in a few hours.

As for now, stay strong and beautiful (your own terms of beauty, that is)

"Why are you into beauty?"

If you want a light-hearted post, do not read further. If you are afraid of rants, just skip this post.

For people who read my blog regularly and the blogosphere we reside in beauty and beauty-items are important and a fun way for us to express ourselves. We understand that society puts a lot of pressure onto us for being attractive and young, which might be one of the reasons to indulge into cosmetics.

Only, outside the blogworld, I find myself to be criticized by my interest in beauty-items. It is deemed at being superficial and flakey. I would not dare to express my hobby at University, as I would be totally burned down by some fancy 'intellectuals' who think their past-time is sooo much better than mine. And honestly, I find this to be offensive and the double standard is incredibly obvious in those circles, as people at University value each other on attractiveness as well!

So, I do feel the need to look young and attractive...I want that lipgloss to give me a nicer pout. I am not a natural beauty as some of the people are, so I need extra help. I am not into surgery or injectables (yet), so my beauty has to come from the products I use.

As for my inner beauty: it is present! I am a beautiful person within. Only, society sees the outside first and makes its judgement and first impression based on that, which makes me sad sometimes.

I would like to know from my fellow bloggers why they are into beauty, and how their friends/collegues/family think about that? Do you confess being a beauty addict? and to whom? Do you feel judged by being too 'superficial'?